Alicia,
After my trip to Assisi, and what the priest said to me in confession, I know that you are in Heaven. But I also know that you are not just at my side as I have always believed you to be, but you are all around me, caring and loving me, bathing my spirit in the light of Eternal Love which is God’s gift to us all, and infusing my soul with some of the joy and happiness which you are experiencing in Heaven. So much so that at times I hardly seem to grieve at all--- at least not in the way that people around me expect me to grieve.
I hope this does not mean I love you less than I really want to, because I want my love for you to be as all embracing, as total and eternal, as is God’s love for you. I want God to let me experience some of His love for you. Even a fraction of that Divine Love will be more than enough for my poor soul to bear, but still sufficient to impel me to love you even more.
It seems to me that growth into limitless love for you, through Him, would be the essence of the Kingdom He has promised us. So teach me to love you Alicia as God loves you. In His presence you know my heart as well as anyone has known it. Unlock its depths to the light of Everlasting Love.
I would willingly surrender my present sense of your immediacy and presence if it meant, in Gods own time, I would hold you in my heart as He has always held you in His! That would truly be Heaven.
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